DETOX

DAY 23
Spent most of the afternoon in town ,i was meant to buy some present for saturday but I didnt.
Bought the meat stuff though.I was feeling pretty awful earlier on had a fantastic orange juice in a christian book shop and read a book about women found it very intresting it talks about various types of women from the clingy to the controlling woman.Am certain am not clingy though I like things being done at the right time does that make me a control freak no.
most of these books usually talk of child hood abuse leading to all these problems assuming you where never abused as a child would the various relationships in adult life contribute to who we are? I dont know. ive had two whole tomatoes today I thought as a matron at a function maybe I could nibble something and not be too on the extreme thats just me talking but am sure thats the right approach to life.
Ive reached the part of my journey of life where I feel its time for me to give back to the world what ive received the gift of knowledge , life and understanding, am not sure yet where my place is in this circle so am asking my God about it he always answers me am so blessed.
am actully looking like a new being and I feel so beautiful strangely enough ive always looked at myself as me and thats it.
I last felt like this when i was in uni.
long time ago in the far far away land.
mailed some friends ive not heard from ages to to say am here.
am missing the zambian market noise its annoying ,strange but addictive you just get suped in the people around its like they all know each other.
God watch over me on saturday and order my footsteps.
am sure I can go the distance if i can be strong for every mile is worth a while.